I’ve been thinking a lot about fate lately.  I guess because that movie with Matt Damon is coming out, and I read a lot of interviews about what the actors think of fate.  And I have been looking for a job for what seems like forever, and I don’t understand why I am not getting interviews or anything.   I did everything I was supposed to, I guess its really partly the economy and partly my lack of experience, but it feels good to say “this didn’t work out because it was not meant to be, something that is right for me is waiting”.  And then I am letting myself believe in fate, or at least a power higher than myself.

I have also been praying.  The thing about my family history and my inability to fully believe in a higher power until now is that my immediate family made decisions based blindly on their beliefs and I do not agree with how they lived.   And when I go back further in my genealogy its more of the same.  People leaving their country, their friends and loved ones for a religion.